Family Reunions.

Family reunions; only once in a while – only once in a year when everybody had vocation and we gather up. This is actually the best time in the whole year. To be honest, we go around to so many different places, meet so many strangers, make so many friends. But, at the end of the day; family is all you have. Family is all who have got your back no matter how other people might be judging you. For me, this is one of the precious times. Where we can all gather up, stay up all night, and laugh so much until it hurts our stomach. Going out on adventures with cousins.  Simple, the best things are way too hard to be explained in words. These moments can only be felt. Be cherished after they’re over. And, while you have this time, while you have your family – love these people, love these moments. There’s nothing that can replace these people.

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Today, me and all my little cousins went on a jungle adventure and it was an amazingly movie-ish time. I will never forget it. I have really few cousins I feel really happy and comfortable with.

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Books. Books are your best friends. And, only those people who truly loves you would take you to your favorite place: Library. ❤

So, many more from this summer’s family reunion. I wish I had the more photos from this time. But, truth is, the actual happy days and moments are those where you forget to click photos and take selfies.
Hope there are more such unions. Hope more such days. Hope more such times. Amen.

The month of Blessings

The holy month of Blessings has already arrived and aren’t we just so much lucky to have another chance to live it yet again?
Many of us loves looking at the stars. This month, try counting the stars and match every single one of them with the reason of how we are so much blessed. Bet, the stars will fall lesser to the blessings bestowed upon up. Imagine yet we tend to be sinful? And, do things we are not suppose to do!

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How about make the best use of this virtuous month and repent for once and for all. I know the sweetness of these days can not be defined in words. Yet again, lets make a difference by our actions. Stop doing the things that takes you away from Allah Swt. Everything else can wait. But, you never know if you will ever get this chance again. Stop bickering about the heat, about the thirst and hunger. Rather utilize this energy into something productive. Make Dua,  lots of Dua, More than you do in normal days. Find reasons to get close to your Creator.

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It’s been said that, “All the water in the world. the oceans and the seas, can not extinguish the fire of Hell. But, a single teardrop shed for Allah, can save Us” Subhan’Allah. What else can we ask for? A single tear for all the sins that we have been doing and Allah would forgive us if we cry before Him only once. No doubt He’s one and only and the most Forgiving.

I feel so blessed to be among the people to have survived  made it to another Ramadhan. Many of us just didn’t. And, We never know if we could make it to another one. So Pray to Him, and the best part is one doesn’t always have to put it into words. He always understands unlike human beings. He resides right inside our hearts, So close to Us. Yet we complaint about how so many of the things we wish for go unanswered. I swear once, just for once forget everything and ask for Allah’s Qurb and Muhhab’a. Ask Him, from Him. Ask Him to bless us with the treasures of Akhirah and a life full of hayya and izzat in this World, for we are only here for a while. All of this is an illusion and it will end any moment. This Ramadhan, Ask Allah to help us become better Muslims, better Human beings. To become what we are suppose  to become, to live for what we are sent. All of your desires will seem to have no value once you know how sweet and beautiful it really is to be a person close to Allah.

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May this month put an end to all of our pains and worries, May our beautiful Country be protected from all the bad things. And, All the days ahead are better and beautiful in Allah’s qurb. May all of our prayers be answered and all those that go unanswered,may we get something better than that. I have heard a prayer never go a waste even when unanswered. It always comes back in the shape of something better and more beautiful. Let’s pledge to grow more closer to Allah, our real purpose. Ameen.

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“Building Peace in Our Hearts and Minds”

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I , always used to have so many complaints about how unfair life really is to me. How there are so many things I am constantly asking for but there’s a delay in the answer. I used to cry over nights and the next morning if someone would ask me why? I would say “Another sleepless night” – Forgetting it was just another night where I did not thank Allah for all virtues and all the millions of blessings I was blessed with. I was forgetting the most important part of my life where I needed to show my complete gratitude to Allah (S.W.T.) I did not just realize it overnight. It took me a lot of time and effort, a lot of heart breaks and tears until I realized all the faults were right inside of me. How I was neglecting the peace inside my heart. How I overlooked the most precious of my belongings and blessings. I was just too blind to see. Allah is the most forgiving and despaired all of my faults right when I asked for forgiveness and learnt I was blissfully blessed. I have a beautiful family. I have the wealth of health. The smile I wake up every morning with – ain’t just a reason enough to live for and die for too? Life is full of blessings. It’s just us who get too late to focus on those things. We cry too much and for too much of the useless stuff. My story is weird.. I know there are things that still are important to me, things that are no luxurious but important, things that I would ask for in my prayers and cry when I would not get a speedy answer. But, then I came across something – That, if ALLAH is delaying in answering my prayers and fulfilling your plans, may be HE just planned something more wonderfully awesome for you. Something more that you actually prayed for. Something beyond your mind that you had no idea you deserved. This thought has always filled me up immense relief and a great peace of mind and heart. That’s how it is. ALLAH’s plans are always better and perfect. I have realized over time that filthy rich people are not always happy. They are usually the people who crave for peace of mind and peace of heart so bad. They have so much to take care of. Most of the time,their money, huge bank accounts and their never ending properties – is the reason they can not sleep peacefully throughout the long nights.  It’s just us who complaints too much. Our Beloved Prophet (Peace Be Upon Him) – who was so dear and near to ALLAH , could have asked for anything for HIMSELF but instead HE spent sleepless nights, Praying to ALLAH for Us. For the Muslim Ummah! What do you think? Aren’t we just luckier than any other nation or country or any group of people around the world. All my tears of dismay just changed into tears of thankfulness and regret for I should have realized all this earlier. All filled up with peace, I have realized I am blessed more than I even have the knowledge of.  And, It was meant for now – no sooner or no later but just NOW ! Know that when you feel like asking from ALLAH , HE’s actually planning to give you. So, Ask for what you feel you deserve. Ask for forgiveness! I haven’t been through life much though but a little that I have , taught me some wonderful lessons. For a span of three months I happened to work in a hospital and I saw people, sick people, people fighting for life, striving for peace. I could read in their eyes how hard they wished to walk and smile and laugh like people around them. I saw very young people and very old people and little children crying in pain. For the very first time I actually realized what laid within those saddened walls. Everyday someone would die. Everyday a new baby was born. Life and death were like a routine thing there. Pain was there within many eyes and on the faces of people. When I would come back to my room, laying in my bed and would closed my eyes for a little rest. I would see their faces. It would not make me happy but sad. A lot sadder than I have ever been in my life and I wished I could actually do something for them. But, I could not do a lot though except for a little prayer.A little prayer that may they have their inner peace returned sooner than soon. I know no matter how sad all those people has made me, could never make me feel what they were actually going through. How wrenched up and teared their hearts were. I could never feel the pain that they actually felt and that’s the point that made difference. It could have been me instead of anyone else there. But no, ALLAH has made me lucky enough. HE gave me good food to eat, clothes to put on, roof to be safe in, friends to laugh with, family to be happy with, enough prosperity to be literate to understand a lot many things that a lot many people can’t. He gave me hands, feet, hair, fingers, eyes, nose, tongue, brain and heart! and what not? He gave me a perfect body. I saw there are many handicapped people. What else do people refer peace to? It’s not always the absence of war. It is actually the absence of the ability to thank for what actually we have. Allah has privileged me in a million ways that even if I spend my complete life time thanking HIM – It’s just never going to be enough! Yet, many of us after so many of the blessings tend to disobey HIM. Not remember to thank HIM before going to sleep every night. Yet we tend to have a peaceful night. We have accommodated so much of the useless and materialistic stuff in our hearts and in our minds that we have forgotten our basic purpose that HE sent us here for. We have associated our inner peace with the worldly materialistic things. The things that we buys with money. We have never actually given a thought to how the most peaceful and successful life is attained with what is always free. A smile, hug, a Friend, A helping hand, A happy family.  It’s sad – Sadder than sad! May be I am one in this category too. Often I forget my purpose. And I wish I don’t again. I don’t want to again. we have all become short tempered and ill-mannered. We have started to love our possessions more than our relations. We are looking for peace in the things that never lasts long. We spend time with things and not with the people we are meant to be with. Then, we regret it and miss them when they leave us all alone. We think we have grown up so fast and we know so much – we disobey our parents and tell them we know better. It saddens me up how and where this generation is going to end up! How we have changed the meaning to many pure things. I hope we realize, realize what we are here for. What we have been sent in for. The things we take for granted, some one else is praying for that. I hope ALLAH help and guide and support us to understand the real meaning of tranquility, to feel the real calmness and restfulness is free, not much costly. It’s always free and always will be. My heartfelt voice screams to you all how we are lost and thrown in astray. There’s a very famous quote that says: “There’s no path to Peace, Peace is the path”. And, May be those are the most truest words I have heard so far.

Final Thoughts Towards Tomorrow

I don’t know what is making me write this but I have a few final thoughts after a little bit of surveying. I have found out that we are living in such a materialistic world, where everything is being so controversial and human life has minimum safety. Love doesn’t exist and feelings are all impure. So many humans talking about all of these things already, I known right. But, how many actually walks up and stands before all the odds to be different in a good way. I know being being human is the very answer to why we are all so full of flaws, enmity, hostility, disrespect, falsehood and so many other things more poisonous than we can ever imagine. I believe there’s a way out . We can make it different. I know that we lie, about so many things. We lie about what we are the most afraid to confess. We lie because we are afraid we will be judged and so many other things. We have given up all the good things, even the good thoughts and good will. We are loosing it very badly everyday and I am scared it’s not very late we will all be shattered around. We confess hatred out loud but not love. Nothing would be lost if we do things on the contrary. Ain’t being successful together better than being successive alone? I am so afraid at times to go out not because there are dangerous animals, but because I’m afraid of human beings. I’m afraid I’ll be harmed or harassed and I know it’s not only me, I’m not alone with these fears. There’s a whole lot of people with the same thoughts and the same ferocity. I want to make a difference if my word matters. If this to you too is a mater we should change, then lets work on it.
I want to live in a place with no savagery, brutality, barbarity, fierceness, violence, aggression and bloodthirstiness. Is that too hard to believe that there will be a place like I dream?
This is my heartfelt voice. I believe with love and with hands together we can overpower whats destroying us. There’s always an analysis to the problems we face and to this it’s that we should stand together, with love and togetherness we can empower what’s impossible. The way towards a changed and better tomorrow is no other than this. And, I believe you too have been thinking of all these but, Hey – Since I helped change these thoughts into words, now let’s together change these into Actions  as well 🙂

Colors and Colors.

So, pondering over why is important to be colorful. The only answer I can come up with is that perhaps we all need a little spiced up tragedies and weird combinations. Truth is, If we had no color, there would have been no life at all. I find it hard to believe that things would have been black and white since they are colors too. The image I get in my head thinking of a colorless world is dreadful. I even fail to imagine, even imaginations are full of them. A world of baffled off and uninteresting. May be that’s something, thoughts deny to eradicate.

I have been always in love with colors. Colors intrigues me so much, where ever I go, whenever I find them strike my eyes, it’s like Colors make me so happy. Wonder how one hell of a panic would it be, to be in a place colorless and transparent. How hollow and annoyingly disturbing.

Colors are really important, it’s like a therapy you need every once in a while. They like the smoke to when we are high. Colors reflect the moods and the emotions and I read somewhere that working with charged colored waters is actually used as a therapy for different diseases.

For a person like me, it is so hard to actually think of a single day without these amazingly adorable colors. May be I’d define that as blindness. Since, I don’t think there’d be anything worth seeing if we had no colors and the brightness that they bring and the love that they fling and they put smiles on all the through spring and all the days before that and the days after that. It’s like every moment ^_^

Here Are My Answers.

I have questions. And, I need answers to them. I want to know why certain “why’s” exist. And, Why am I so vulnerable to fact that you know me so well. I wonder if it’s not only me with these questions. Why have I chosen these metaphors to destroy me, even though they don’t have the power to! I feel so sorry for myself because somehow I know why is it this way. For why I feel hurt and happy to the worldly things. May be I have been too much believing on may be’s and I let them destroy my entire entity. There’s so much on my head. So much I need to let out and scream and fist those people right in the stomach because they have been making me so sad in the reward to me loving them. Sighs* Just like so many others, I, too have made my life to tough and hard. So for once in a while, I want to be free. stop looking for the answers and stop asking Why. Be myself and live only  for my own. For once, let’s be selfish. Because that’s how it works. You see everyone is only there for you because they want to be there. They’re nice because they need You. For a second I thought, that may be I have picked up the wrong people as my friends — but mistakes happens once or twice or may be thrice even — but No! Truth is, Everyone is that way. They will only use you. You feel so happy in the beginning that you’re so lucky and all. These are all your sweet-tooth fantasies. Reality is a total different thing. It’s very harsh outside your home and comfort zone. People are like zombies. They will only eat you up because to them, you are like, “Mummm.. So tasty”. That’s how it really is.

I stopped asking questions because I pretty much found out that the more you seek love from outside. The more it hurts right in your heart. 🙂 The rule is very simple and I just stated it too. I will always and always tell everyone to love who actually loves you. Love those who deserve your love in real. Don’t let your heart be vulnerable or yourself so some asshole’. Don’t let your secrets out. And, be the person you will never regret. Sometimes, I regret being me. The person that I’ve chosen to be. I feel sad that I helped people and gave them a part of me and my life to make them happy.You see, they never get happy. They’ll always keep you second. So make distances from people who are first to you and they keep you second. Don’t let them hurt you. Why do they even have the power to? 

I have my answers now because people those have hurt me. I have wasted my tears on people who did not deserve them. And, only then I have been able to write this. So may be after reading this, You know you don’t have to let those unwanted people hurt you. Because You’re precious and they don’t have to play with something as delicate as your heart and feelings.

Just a li’l curious, or may be a lot!

I am not into you. I am just curious about you. About what you do? Go through the photos of you. Just to know how it actually feels like to be You – in particular. I am not really very fond of staring at You! or even if I am, I would never let it out. I will never let it show, I just want to know what you like in breakfast? Or, do you just go for brunch! 😀 Are you fond of Tea, too? Are you really that profound or is it that i read your eyes a bit wrong. Was it a delusion – an unknown illusion. I think of why you are always on my head, right in front of my eyes when I have them closed. Walking in my unconscious mind and thoughts! I often wonder what would you be doing in the midnight? Fast asleep or just a night-owl like Me. My thoughts do crumble and creep through Me & then they stumble at one point making me very very Awkward. Do you sometimes like to go out and roam aimlessly, or just sit on your own or even just walk alone? All at back of those bunch of people – You always are like that? Not letting your heart confess what it actually wants? Are you really a book worm? Or did you just held that one to stay a li’l longer? 🙂 Do You like Grilled chicken sandwiches? Umm.. Even if you do I don’t really know how to make them. It’s just that I love them – thought you’d love them, too? Do you own a car, a bike – something or even anything at all to make me believe you actually do go out and exist out of that building in the world outside? What is the name next to your first name? Why do you always look like thaat?? What’s your favorite Ice-cream flavor? Are you a talking person or just as quiet as Me? What’s the mystery? Reveal it to me! Why do you not pass-by a lot? Why always invisible when I look out for you? Do you even know my name. Have you ever wondered what it would be? Do you sometimes like Cold coffee? Why are you really that tall? Why do you make me wonder so many things and make me come up with so many stupid Questions. Questions I’d never find the answers to. I know too many WHY’s! Yeah! And, You will never be able to find out who you are and who “I” am — Unless you look up of that book and come up with exact the same number of Why’s as I did. & I bet I am going to win this one. I always WIN! 🙂

Be Grateful !

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I , always used to have so many complaints about how unfair life really is to me. How there are so many things I am constantly asking for but there’s a delay in the answer. I used to cry over nights and the next morning if someone would ask me why? I would say “Another sleepless night” – Forgetting it was just another night where I did not thank Allah for all virtues and all the millions of blessings I was blessed with. I was forgetting the most important part of my life where I needed to show my complete gratitude to Allah (S.W.T.) I did not just realize it overnight. it took me a lot of time and effort, a lot of heart breaks and tears until I realized all the faults were right inside of me. How I overlooked the most precious of my belongings and blessings. I was just too blind to see. Allah is the most forgiving and despaired all of my faults right when I asked for forgiveness and learnt I was blissfully blessed. I have beautiful family. I have the wealth of health. The smile I wake up every morning with – ain’t just to live for and die for too? life is full of blessings. It’s just us who get too late to focus on those things. we cry too much and for too much of the useless stuff. My story is weird.. I know there are things that still are important to me, things that are no luxurious but important, things that I’d ask for in my prayers and cry when I would’t get a speedy answer. But, then I came across something – That if ALLAH is delaying in answering your prayers and fulfilling your plans, may be HE just planned something more wonderfully awesome for you. Something more that you actually prayed for. Something beyond your mind that you had no idea you deserved. That’s how it is. ALLAH’s plans are always better and perfect.. It’s just us who complaints too much. Our Beloved Prophet (Peace Be Upon Him) – who was so dear to ALLAH , could have asked for anything for HIMSELF but instead HE spent sleepless nights, Praying to ALLAH for Us. For the Muslim Ummah! What do you think? Aren’t we just luckier than any other nation or country or any group of people around the world. All my tears of dismay just changed into tears of thankfulness and regret for I should have realized all this earlier. But, it was meant for now – no sooner or no later but just NOW ! Know that when you feel like asking from ALLAH , HE’s actually planning to give you. So, Ask for what you feel you deserve. Ask for forgiveness! I haven’t been through life much though but a little that I have , taught me some wonderful lessons. while my work time in the hospital, I saw people , sick people ! I could read in their eyes how hard they wished to walk and smile and laugh like people around them. I saw very young people and very old people and little children crying in pain. For the very first time I actually realized what laid within those saddened walls. Everyday someone would die. Everyday a new baby was born. Life and death were like a routine thing there. Pain was there within many eyes and on the faces of people. When I would come back to my room, laying in my bed and would closed my eyes for a little rest. I would see their faces. It would not make me happy but sad. A lot sad than I have ever been in my life and I wished I could actually do something for them. But, I could not do a lot though except for a little prayer. I know no matter how sad all those people has made me, could never make me feel what they are actually going through. How wrenched up and teared they hearts were. I could never feel the pain that they actually felt and that’s the point that made difference. It could have been me instead of anyone else there. But no, ALLAH has made me lucky enough. HE gave me good food to eat, clothes to put on, roof to be safe in, friends to laugh with, family to be happy with, enough prosperity to be literate to understand a lot many things that a lot many people can’t. He gave me hands, feet, hair, fingers, eyes, nose, tongue, brain and heart! and what not? He gave me a perfect body. I saw there are many handicapped people. He has privileged me in a million ways that even if I spend my complete life  time thanking HIM – It’s just never going to be enough! Yet, many of us after so many of the blessings tend to disobey HIM. Not remember to thank HIM before going to sleep every night. We have accommodated so much of the useless and materialistic stuff in our hearts and in our minds that we have forgotten our basic purpose that HE sent us here for. It’s sad – Sadder than sad! May be I am one in this category too. Often I forget my purpose.And I wish I don’t again. I don’t want to again. we have all become short tempered and ill-mannered. We have started to love our possessions more than our relations. We spend time with things and not with the people we are meant to be with. Then, we regret it and miss them when they leave us all alone. We think we have grown up so fast and we know so much – we disobey our parents and tell them we know better. It sadden me up how and where this generation is going to end up! I hope we realize, realize what we are here for. What we have been sent in for. The things we take for granted, some one else is praying for that. I hope ALLAH help and guide and support us. Ameen! =)

Because YOU are all I ever NEED <3

No other sun has ever lighted my sky, No other star has ever shone in my nights. these lights and the glitters lightening my darker hours have always been sent by *YOU*. The dreams in my sleepless nights and the soothness when I get really cold, they are all Your blessings that help me get through all the obstacles. These tears I cry makes me feel lighter, I feel better. Thank you for everything you have blessed me with. No single smile has ever been able to make me happy, when YOU weren’t in my heart ❤ No wind, no breeze has ever been able to give me a message from a loved one – Because, there’s none but YOU! You can always be beside me when there’s no one. Your imaginative bound-ness always sorrounds me, When the worldly love fails to! I am really glad that you are like no other human because they always leave me behind! I’m blessed to be who I am and what I am & where I have groomed up and whatever I have become until now. Because, you take up all of my faith, when I am all crumbled up, YOU have been all the good to me. Just because I am not like them or I am inferior. Things that doesn’t matter to me, Doesn’t matter to YOU either. So, I am more than Blessed to have YOu; My LORD ❤

– Because You are all I have
And, You are all I ever NEED ❤

You’re a painter

painting through words

A perfectionist

holding that stick

oh Your words

How they fill me up

With lots of love

As if sent from above

You’re a miracle

A miracle from the sky

you’re a reason

that I fell in love with

the coldness of this season

you’re an angel

Lately I have found

your words have me lured

sensed in them

I have a feeling so pure :’)